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Saturday, December 01, 2007
I've no idea what I did was right or wrong.
There's some confusion within me for the past few days.
But at least, after all these years, I put a full stop to it.
It come to a damn bad ending.
But somehow, Im really relieved.
Coz I don't have to think about it ANYMORE!
For my character, I believe this is the best exit for both of us.
Let the memories be burnt and turn into thin air.
Let all the past to be non-existent and start all over again.
I believe, from now, 1 dec 2007, is my new start of my life since JC.
In the meanwhile, I couldn't believe what I've done for tonight.
It just came so sudden.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
After reading some blogs, I feel like bloggin too!
haha. Has been feeling quite emotional recently.
I don't have the power to stop it.
But I do not wish to hurt.coz I'm once a victim, I do not wan the others to be like the past me.
But I somehow have affection for it.
Yah, Im pretty confused.
I guess if I tell anyone of u, most of u will just say, aiya, be a norm and heck care can?
Alright, that's the most optimistic answer which I expected from my friends.
And, most of them will immediately have their jaws dropped to the ground level if they know abt this.
So well, I don't really intend to tell anyone.or rather, to confide.
Seriously, I really hope that I can figure it out myself of the exact feeling I'm having.
Or am I just a person who lacks the feeling of getting compliment?
So when I happens to get cherished/loved, I just simply feel affection?
Things are going so hay wire recently.
tuitions, and esp. emotions
Out of a sudden, I just feel so dejected.
He doesnt do what he say.
Im so disappointed in him. seriously.
Thus, I make a promise to myself, I'll NEVER ever touch his 'wife' till I got my own.
If you wanted me to learn, please, GUIDE!
and not preventing me from doing so.
With the thought of this and many others, I feel like exploding.
Since the world is going hay wire, I feel like going hay wire too.
Its really damn irritating.
I totally hate this feeling.
And this is the 1st year, ever since we met, I've not wish you happy birthday.
I know this is nothing much.
But still, my heart aches.
DUDE!WAKE UP! its just any other normal day.BE STRONG.
ah, the blue wristband. I wonder if you've threw it away.
Copied from my fren's facebook
'but there we are, as though every one could see, there we are on the side of a hill, on a piece of cloth, checkered in red and white, although the colours appear dimmed and diminished by the dark of the night that is barely broken by the smiling moon. we do not speak, and i am in your arms between your legs, lying against your bodily warmth, that which tells and reassures me that you are for real, and not merely a dream - although what a fig! you are but a dream. the moon shines on us benevolently, and you give me a light kiss on my cheek, it was the left, and ask if i were happy, although why you do so i cannot fathom, for what could make me happier than being with you, only you? but were you the best of all my loves, you whisper into my ear, softly, softly, as though there were a thousand ears around us, ready to listen in and catch a word, any word at all, that was exchanged between us, so as to bellow it to the world and betray our secret, although what secret is there, for we are true and honest to each other, you to me in your embraces and loving smiles, i to you that you were not the best of all my loves - for you were my only love. how should i tell you, then, about the place that you hold in me, the piece that anchors all of me steadfastly together? we might be at a party, although for what it would be eludes me, but there would be spirits, spirits of the kind that linger, spirits of the kind that encourage and embolden my frail presence, spirits of the sort that are drunk, spirits of the sort that encourage and embolden my frail presence. there will be no engrossing yellow flower on the wallpaper, there will be no fascinating eighteenth century golden pocketwatch that arrests our attention, and even if it might be but a hasty breath breathed upon the petals of the flower, or but a turn of the head at the resounding tick of the second-hand on the pocketwatch, i would take you by the hand, aside, to a corner where no one will hear us, and i will tell you, that --i love you.'
He's just a language expert.There's no doubt about it.
But well, Im not sure if he wrote this himself, but I guess probably its written by him.
So touching ar?Even though some parts I don't really understand.oops.aiya, catch the main point can already.lol.Conclusion=> my english sucks to the core.
Anyway, it just shows how romantic he can be to his partner.
Ultimate salute to him,coz even if I've infinite time in my life, its impossible for me to come out with such a fantastic piece of writings to my partner.
My current Mood...
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
WHOO~ I'M A DRIVER TOO! =)))))))))))
shall tok more abt it when i bk out during thurs night coz I've to bk in soon...... = (
Friday, November 02, 2007
The key factor in being a mentor.
Today, I made my instructor lost his patience. I saw myself as my students, my instructor as myself.That pissed off face is what exactly I showed during tuition.That blur, lost face is what exactly I show during driving which is the same as wad my students showed.
I always thought that I was patient enough. Its their laziness that pissed me off.
Till today, then I realised, I'm totally wrong. Perhaps they aren't hardworking enough. But I should have told them what to do. & not leave them in lunch and whenever I test them, I give them the look and give them lectures and lectures..
Its really not easy. Its really a big challenge. A challenge to motivate ppl to do things that they totally have no wish to do.
Its time, for me to ponder and come out with ways..
This time, I've lost the battle.
But I'll win the next one! *roars~
Saturday, October 13, 2007
ORD exercise is finally OVER!!
Although the result is not out yet but csm says its either recon ONE or recon 2A
When we march back from dinner to coyline, we sang the ORD song damn LOUD!
lol. B coy seems to be so jealous.
Or rather, its all written on their face. LOL!
Oh man, nw then i really understand what does rsm means by when u get a gd recon, then u'll have the pride to shout 'ORD LO!'
We..........~~~~come from a company 4 mths to ORD come from a very special company fight for our PINK IC, fight for our ORD, fight with a spirit never seen b4. ORD ORD ALL THE WAY WE LIKE IT HERE WE LIKE IT HERE WE BUILD OURSELVES A HOME A HOME A HOME SWEET HOME!
Born Crawl Walk Run Study + Be naughty Army POP Course Outfield and more outfield till the last one. Going to ORD
Its time for me to plan for what's up next in my life.
Setting up of mini tuition centre at my hse?
Hmm...Requires some planning..heh =)
Friday, October 05, 2007
An early book out for today.
It somehow gave me sometime to reflect these few busy mths
It gave me a chance to slow down my footstep. Just for that few hours.
But seriously, it made me ponder for quite a bit.
I've been telling myself, I'm doing all these because I want to have a better future life.
I want to explore what's my real interest lies at.
For these few months, I thought, I really thought that I managed my time well.
But, I didn't.
I place the priority of earning too high.
I hardly have time to even have a proper meal.
The bare minimum time left are just having simple dinner w my family.
thats all, thats how my weekends are gone.
I hardly catch up w some frens even though they may not want to or may not have e time to.
Initially, I feel, aiya, forget it, friends come and go. I shouldn't be so emotionally dependant on them since they don't really cherish me.
Sometimes I even wonder if they still notice my existence on this earth.They makes me feel unwanted.wellsss..
But fortunately, there are still couple of frens who are still trying to catch up w me who I disappoint them becoz of e students. They are the ones who make me feel wanted.=)
Still, I appreciate them. Seriously.
However, now, at this moment, I really wish I can meet all of my friends. Maybe not all, most of them I mean.
Am I really working too hard?
If I'm, what's the purpose behind it?
Is it really just for a better future and life or does it include the fear of havin a lonely life during weekends?hmmmm...
Suddenly I just feel confused.
On the way back, on train, I saw a young secondary sch couple. I suppose they're couple.haha.
Anyway, the way of communication between them is so cute.
I mean, just a little smile or positive respond from each other makes them smile till I cant see their eyes.haha.
I don't know how to pen it down in words.
But I realise that the art of communication between human can be so simple yet complicated.
It will be damn simple if u communicate with pure innocence and soul.Just like what did the young couple do.
Just a simple smile, it makes a beautiful day for both of them.
I really miss that kind of communication, just like what I do durin sec and JC times. In fact, I love that.
But somehow, my age doesn't allow me to do so.
Now, it seems like one have to pay for that kind of smile. Or rather that kind of smile becomes an evil smile which one might never realise till the end.
It just become more and more complicated till I start to lose myself at times like now.
Every single sentence one speak seems to have hidden meaning.
I really detest that.
Well, this is how the world works.
Regardless if one is in army or working world.
Still, I'll treat it w a =)
Monday, October 01, 2007
i wont have energy to type more.
more n more lessons
till I dun even have time for a proper meal.
buy burgers and ran ard to eat.
Tml i'm packed again.
no time to reply u.
I'll and I must give myself a gd break when 3 of dem grad.
hopefully 1 of dem can get 2 As for me. =)
Busy packed life.(\/) it
20 ----> 21
loves my 'wife'
loves laming though keep stuttering like an idiot
loves pull ups!perhaps, its a past thing alr
loves going out with frens(where?o.O).
loves enjoy life
loves slping(esp when a nice green grass patch.;) )
what i want
wants the one
wants happy life. ;)
wants to be non-virgin when i die. heh..=)
wants ORD NW!