WhatTheFcuk

Saturday, December 18, 2004
10:54 PM

yesterday...eh...in summary is win all matches for trainin n went out with bro i tink..yah..go to the john lim wake..haha..2 of us are like damn stupid...but b4 tat..i went to his hse to have dinner..haha..really brother liao arh...even dinner also go his hse to eat..haha..anyway..we are really have nth to do man...left 45 mins we still take mrt to amk den try to take 135 to touch centre which is totally impossible. so we decided to take cab..but still ..we are LATE!hahah..dumb man both of us..no plannin at all. at FCBC, i really feel tat the session is not really for john n poh yoke. 40% is for dem..but den.60% is for psychoing ppl to join christian. this may sound very harsh to some of u, but tts wad i tink..haha...anyway, i also dun quite trust there's existance of god. coz...the so-called "god" is another kind of strength that we can some how rely on and from dere strive harder and further on..hha..n yah...my jie agree with me also lo..haha..

anyway, during the session, at the beginning, when his frens were toking abt how john lim lives for his entire life, my eyes were really filled with tears, but i hold back. the photos that they show makes me recall how john lim debrief us after the nite walk, so open to all the opinions tat we gave, unlike some teachers. and yah..during the kayaking sch, the memories of how he teach us to use the life vest. he was so frenly and approachable. Recalling of all these, tears almost roll down my cheeks. but den...when some other ppl ..dun knw whoever they are called, erm, who are related to john lim, i really feel tat they were not speaking for john lim, but for christians, persuading ppl to join christians like tat. so bo xim. hey, this is a john lim wake, not jesus one u knw..but well, wad else can i say?pretentious?wadever. i juz hate the kind of speech some of dem gave. den, see hei fa ren send bai fa ren to heaven...really.feel sad for dem...haix..

btw, saw gwen man..haha..so surprised..i din notice her lo...coz she was like sitting behind my row nia!haha..only when i wanna look for pen den i saw her..haha..pretty surprised too.. yah, she got nice dressing tat nite. anyway, after the session, me n bro went to look for jie. actually wanna like lame and walk ard, but den jie says that her parents are coming to fetch her home..so well, accompany her to wait lo..haha..had a gd time laming with her..haha..den when her parents came, her parents offer free ride u knw..haha..so nice of dem of coz cant reject rite..haha..den hop into the car lo..my jie parents very jovial sia...uncle still tell me the fare starts on $9+ coz its already 9+pm..haha..den 5 of us were toking n laming thru the trip till we reached paya lebar mrt station..haha..

today

well, went for competition. woo..i seeded player wor..hahaha..zhuai a bit....=p. anyway, i won 1st 2 games which enable me to enter the round of 16. all with the score of 3-0. well, i dun like the attitude of the 2nd game opponent. wa lan eh, his skill is like so down n still act so skillful. when he lost to me on the 3rd set(the final game set), he still throw his bat lo...tmd so no sportsmanship. lose lose lar, no skill still dare to throw bat, haha..but den i still wanna make him more angry, so i keep smiling thruout the game n make him feel that he is insignificant to me..lol~well..tts wad i tink nia..hope he feel it tat way too..hahaha..

after the 1st 2 games..wah...my next game is at...9pm!!piangx~but also juz nice lar, got time to make it for john lim memorial session. today's session is much better than yesterday's one which is filled with some pretentious er xin ppl. at least today the speech tat nyjcians/teachers made are much more truthful lo...some even cried when tokin, again, my eyes were filled with tears again..haha..actually i cant believe this also, as in..a 5 day camp teacher who hardly make alot of interaction with me, i actually cried for him in my heart. tink im more 'soft' le ba..or in other words, more emotional?haha..no idea, maybe tts a little change in me from the past. the 3 songs chosen are really nice...esp if we hold on together and remember me this way. i hardly sang...but den juz nw i sang with my heart and soul. wonder why also..ahha..juz feel to sing ba?lol.i dun tink i understand myself well also..i left b4 everything ends..coz of competition.

i actually thought of forgoing the competition. but den, tis is bad for both mine n nyjc reputation. n yah...a sign of me being so weak and dun possess a little fight spirit and sportsmanship. so i went back to have the final fight with the super duper skilful china guy. really no fight. haha..juz like wad i did to my previous 2 opponents, i thrashed them n den...nw i tio thrashed. haha..3-0 also..haha..not bad arh..at least my matches have the same match scores..3-0..lost terribly. but i dun feel anything lei. guess i had done my best le ba.my best middle pimple skill also lost to his lo..my advantage is my backhand skills..n he is even better, much better in fact. i have nth to play against him.haha..well, no comments. only can blame on my laziness. n yah...tink im not fated to get into quater final after years of practice...i tink i only got into quater final once?once..haa..self consolation ba..lol..

after the competition, gladed tat lyy, jeremy n my bro still ask me abt it..sort of concern abt it lar..haha..kind of touched yah...thanx guys!hee..got to triple thanx my bro man.coz i went for the memorial from 6 to 8 plus n yah..straight away went to death match, din have dinner u knw..den kind of ask him out to accompany me to eat. its kinda lame and paiseh lei..coz he is not eating ma..but den he still come n accompany me lo!haha.call him bro really mei you cuo.haha..

well, tts all ba..yah, thanx jo..haha..for ur comments(for which u ask poh to tell me..haha)..dun tink u'll be reading this...got chance to meet u n i remember den thank u face-to-face ba..lol..im getting lame these days...omg.

yah, i wanna end of with this..john lim n poh yoke, rest in peace n may u 2 find ur happiness in another world..n thanx for touchin so many ppl's lives.

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