WhatTheFcuk

Tuesday, April 12, 2005
9:49 PM

monday
napfa results sux totally. esp 2.4km run. really cant run. somemore when im juz running e 2nd round. i already feel like vomitting. din do well for shuttle run too. but gd thing is managed to pass standing board jump, surprisingly.

training. received e fixture for individual comp. tmd sux la. 2nd rd will meet the china guy again. last year met him at 3rd round. tis year worse. 2nd rd. really sianx ½. dun feel like going anymore. hope wun get thrashed by him can le. or maybe i cant even get thru the 1st rd. who knws?tat wu ming xiao zi can be an expert. wonder y. i train pretty hard. as if i had used all my energy. maybe i still have e phobia of competitions?tts me. last min den prepare things. n the coach damn stupid also la. i ask him to change pimples(backhand rubber) coz its a bit pathetic n dun tink can use it for competitions. n yet he change to long pimple instead of middle pimples la. shit him. in e end my backhand is like totally useless liao lor. n tts when my strength is at my backhand la. great. nvm. wed will get the thing changed. if still not correct i'll throw my bat rite into his face.

Today
tink pull-up bar is going to be my best fren. it practically really let me feel lots better after doing pull-ups. visited my best fren thrice today. even dikai was shocked. haa. like e feeling of "flying" rite up over the bar. i mean my head "flying" over. oh yah. mug alone today. omg. find tat i still cant memorise reactions well. great. its time for me to do revision again. n today's chem lecture is a total blur for me la. NMR. wad mr. lee says seems crappy to me. it doesnt make any sense.
no logic at all. protons juz flip here n dere?*huh look. wadever la. wait for mrs. lim to teach me le. studies is juz going more n more difficult. NMR is the last chapter for core syllabus. after tat we'll do environmental chemistry. doesnt sound simple to me. perhaps i shld do wad mrs.lim says, "eat chem, slp chem n live chem"by tat time my world will revolves ard chemistry. den i can fail my maths and phy. fabulous.

tml training again. sianx.

yes. i shldnt care abt anything nw. its time for me to be independent. though im in hell once again. but hope it'll be over real soon. n it will be.

thanx for those who show some concern. oh yah. today got one person ask me if im ok. v surprising. literally like lost contact with her for abt ..2 years?i mean din tok la. last time used to be v gd table-tennis opponent. in order to win her in table-tennis = i muz put in my 100%. well. cant be blamed for tat. she's one of the sg top 4 players. but nw dun knw liao. seems like she din play table-tennis tat often le. her As results is superb. BBA. gp A2 wor~tts like..wa lan eh. so steady la. BBA. my dream grade. she got it. nw its my turn. haa. but gp. please. pass. full concentration on BBA~ya.1st priority will be tat. n nth else. =)

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