WhatTheFcuk

Wednesday, April 27, 2005
11:02 PM

Lost. we lost 3-2 to AJ. y?all becoz of me. ME ME N ME!i shld have won tat guy. y din i persevere further on?1st set i even thrashed him 11-4 la.~WTH~wad kind of captain am i?i cant even help to bring my team to top 4 when there's a high chance. moreover, his skill is ard e same as mine. im no way inferior to him in ANYWAY!i really hate tis. wad joshua said is rite. we miss the chance of getting into top 4 by 3 pts. 3 pts!!y?coz i lost the last set with the score of 11-8!fuck off. like tis i lost to him by 3-2. im really disappointed with myself. n i really hate myself. i lost something tat is controllable. its within my means. really sorry to my team mates. i knw nw wadever i say is totally ptless. coz it doesnt help at all. everyone is hoping me to win tat match. they cheered hard. esp on the last set. n yet i disappoint dem. everyone pins the hope on me. n yet i lost. i really let u'all down. i really dun knw wad to say. but i really feel tat im super useless. i din fulfill the role of a captain. i din even fulfill the role of being a gd player.(which is the minimal tat i can do) ya. i knw. tat's wad i deserved. *tears rolled down.

guys. really sorry~how i wish i can make up for everything. I really dun knw how to face dem tml. I knw they din really put the blame on me.but everyone knws.even coach show signs of disappointment in me. NY lost becoz of me. NY couldnt get into top 4 becoz of me. i get into NY by table-tennis. n nw wad?i cant even do the least amount of thing tat i can do for e team. at least last year i din lost a single match. n tis year?i had already lost 2 matches. till nw. i still cant get over it. there are juz too many things tat i cant let go of.

Even though i had lost, the team still console me. including the 3 teachers who went to support. really thanx. i had let u'all down n u'all still treat me so well. i had no one to blame except for myself. even though nw when i recall back, i tink the strategy given by coach is wrong. coz im e one playing. not anybody else.

tml vs RJ. AJ lost by 3-2. so perhaps there's still chance for us to get into top 4 if we win. but till nw, i still cant tink of a gd line up. hope tml's morale will be as high as today. really hope tat everyone's morale lvl wun be affected by today's match. there isnt much time left. i muz recover by tml morning. i muz be strong tml. at least. i muz put on a real fierce fight with RJ tml. im really tired. tml den i update all e details ba. *prays tml NY will win RJ.

I'M REALLY SORRY.........

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