WhatTheFcuk

Sunday, October 02, 2005
3:54 PM

The sense of emptiness once again overwhelm me. Wait, is tat consider as emptiness?Or is it the sense of lacking?lol..wadever it is. It definitely doesnt feel gd. Guess overall i have been avoiding to face e reality. Indulge myself in work n use studies as an excuse to heck care other stuffs. Perhaps im juz weak and cant control. *haix. In addition, after spending so much fucking time on my 3As, i still cant score as well as i tot i'll be. I really wish i could achieve the goals i had for myself. But seems like, I have achieved none. ok lah. Dun say none, only 1 i guess. tts A for maths. But i feel tat is quite negligible though. haha. Ok. I have to disclaim tat im not zhuai-ing. Tts wad i really feel nia.

Whatever it is, i guess i really have to dump the past and chase it out of my life 4eva though i had already deleted all the phone msg recently. Coz i really hate the feeling of having hope n yet fall badly in e end. Really hate it. I rather dun have tat hope at all initially. I scared history will repeat. Coz i juz find too many similiarities. Perhaps my judgement are all wrong, but i guess i can predict wad will happen in e end accurately. haha. Pardon me for getting so negative. Tts me. I'll tend to get damn fucking negative in certain thing if my self-confidence for tat area is super low. Guess for nw, i can find my self-confidence when i touch the bar or maths. Tts where I can fly. Tts where i can surpass most of the ppl.

Though i do not knw the Fr, but somehow, y am i afraid to apply F and result in some WD?

Haix. last nite slp quite late. 3am. haha. record for slping time ay home though.

haha. Love sick guy!haha. Rem to have enough slp!wahaha

But..I guess i'll continue to be unlove sick guy. =D

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