WhatTheFcuk

Friday, April 14, 2006
1:35 AM

1st day
Upon reaching Paris Ris Mrt, I really feel like shit. Seriously. Do really feel that, 'ah, going to jail' that kind of feeling yah. Coz i really imagine the life to be very shitty. But when i reach dere, things turn out to be different, really different, nice buildings are seen though i heard that its 10+ years old. But still, i dun feel much better till i really get into my bunks. B4 tat, my parents were like dun bear to part with me. & to be frank, i dun really have that kind of feeling. I juz part with dem in a calm, peaceful manner. I wonder why too. Is it really I dun love them as much as they do for me?Or, am i Mentally prepared?No idea. But still, i guess, I enjoyed the times with my new frens in my bunk.Let's hope life will get better though its almost impossible for it to happen..

13 Apr
It had been a few days. Really dun have time to pen down my thoughts in the notebk, have been busy sms-ing ppl, kind of like, find ppl to entertain me when i see my bunkmates tok to their gfs?Inevitably, I miss ppl too. I really do miss. I really wish to see them in front of me nw, but well...whatever. Yah, seriously i missed the times with all my frens, esp NYTT team. Miss the piggybacking though my arms r not really strong enough. Miss the cheering. Miss the praying during competition too. Yah, Im not playing. But somehow, I feel as anxious as them. Really, I do. I believe my heart beat rate is as fast as theirs. Besides tat, I suddenly miss someone too. ha, i wonder why. Im seriously quite surprised too.Yah, anyway, I kind of have a weird trend. Normally, ppl cant slp well for the 1st few nites. But for me, I slpt well for 1st 2 nites. &!3-5th nite, ah, really din slp well. weird isnt it?Even when my superior ask me if i slpt well for the 1st nite, and when i say yes, he was super stunned. lol..Well, Perhaps I'm juz weird.

Monday?Yah, shld be monday nite which i start to have slping problem. I juz find tat im super lousy at phone chatting and console.I knw, all of u trained like hell. Train, train and train.Facing failure is really nt easy. I guess, its really the luck factor tat decides on everything. I have not seen such lousy draw b4. Last year when luck is on my side, I really screwed it up for my WHOLE team.till nw, i still feel guilty for it. I guess, that sense of guilt will never get erase from my heart.. This year when they din screw it up, luck is not on their side. I really wonder why. Is dere really like a curse?Or its juz..fate?Hopefully next yr they become stronger. mentally stronger. anyway, my mind turn super duper slow. I cant even catch the command well. Heng Henry tell me some of it online juz nw. Else, i'll really be ready to get punished. 2nd week is coming. 8 more weeks to go b4 get pop out from it. To be frank, I really dun like the life dere. But still, I wan to go for at least a SISPEC. So at least, got some rank when i ord. haha.

There are quite a number of jokes in my 1 week stay. Wan to knw?ask me den. haha. but some is action pack de la, need to meet so that i can do the funny actions.haha.

Anyway, Guys, Train hard!!next yr is ur turn to show them what u have~

Waiting for my botak pic?haha. not ready yet la, next time k. no time to even blog finish. gotta go out to meet bro n xm le..

lol..how can i 4get this man!THANKS FOR THE CAP, XM N DA JIE!what an early b'day present!hahha. 1st time in my whole life that i get a present 1 mth b4.lol..but really, thanks!=)

1.51pm..

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