Saturday, May 20, 2006
3:11 PM

This week is fucking hell. Really. Okay, I knw im getting more n more vuglar. Or rather, im juz revealing what kind of person im originally.

15th May
Its the day of bking in. I muz say that im quite fortunate to slp at home for ONE more night. In additional, I finished my medical lreview in juz 40 mins!lol..Carrying such a big bag ard, I really dun wish to go home and come out again with the same old attire. It juz makes no sense at all. Luckily, My juniors concidentally have early dismissal today too!Else, I guess I wld have to stone somewhere in white sand?or whatever shopping centre to wait for time to passsSs~

Well, I guess my phy explanation is damn boring/rather too un clear. It juz makes someone to take a nap within secs isnt it?haha. Fancy still wanna to be a tutor. I cant even speak properly. How to TEACH?!there's something wrong with my nerves isnt it arhh?AH! I dun knw y. I seems to revert to my old self gradually.The pessis. old self. where are all my +ve tots?!WHERE?!They have vanished into thin air.Seems like, I cant find it anywhere in this universe. I've been hoping for it. but, it NEVER come. I cant even do it when im not in NS. What's more when im in it?!To be frank, I feel so crappy. Its juz apart for like few hrs. few hrs. Im really a fucking pussy. ah, dun worry dude. Let's hope tml's activites will shag u out till u drop dead once u touch ur bed. =)

During RO, Malay Superior was reading some names out for dun knw what purpose la k. So there's one person's name is...Lam Zhi Hong. Being a malay, I guess he cant pronounce it well, Lam Zhi Hong becomes Lam CHEE Hong.LOL!

Thanks for that special ruler. I guess tat's the most 'funky' ruler I ever have in my entire life. lol..

Oh man, How can I forget this?!hahaha. Thanks for the PURDUE T-Shirt Lawrence!!=)

Asyln - That's when I love you

16th May
I've been so afraid to even switch on my hp. But well, its what my pessis. mind had expected it to be. So well...blah. Anyway, I really feel damn sick and mentally tired today. I tot the strenious activities will pull all the tots out of my mind. But, It din. *hai

During SOC, I actually ROPE BURNT my 4th finger when trying to climb up the low rope. its really damn pain. Hope it'll recover damn soon....

I'm really down. I actually allow u to bring me down. I'm really tired. I shld get more slp and get all the tots out of my mind so as to continue with the damn sick army life..= (

17th May
Again, its a fucked up day. Yesterday Rope Burnt. Today big fat blister grow on the heels of my feet. Its so damn pain. I was limping all the way through out the day. Maybe the report is right, males lvl of tolerance for pain is GENERALLY lower than that of females. But still, pls allow me to complain. haha.. With that big fat thing, I still have to march, run ard when i was wearing boots!The boots keep rubbing against the blister. ewwww..Esp on the way to the live grenade pt. wtf, the slop is so steep. I cant run fast and yet they wan us to move fast. In the end, I've to hop at times in order to catch up. NOte this, I actually hop faster than i run. very -_-" right. Crap. I was in pain till i sweat alot. But well, Thankfully, I din die during live grenade throw, my officer and I actually survived!lol..Again, the life is really wait to rush, rush to wait. Its soooooo sick.....

I feel damn sick. though im really sick in terms of serious cough. But, I juz feel so weak and sick. My appetite actually shrink like hell. I cant even finish a plate of rice today!its so..disheartening. NO WAY~i wont allow my gained weight to be lost in this manner. I shall eat more in order to compensate the loss in the next meal! =)

19th May
I tink I better write down 'interesting' incidents happened recently. Or else, i'll juz tend to 4get abt it. haha..Yesterday..FUCKING DAY!!We practically 'work' from 7am to 10pm. Its really much worse than working outside. GYM followed by Arms Drill, BCCT(Basic Close Combat Training) and SOC (2 times full course). Its really very shag day for me. & I tink Im really not fit & daring enough to even pass SOC!note the word. PASS!i cant even pass u knw. argh. With SBO, rifle and helmet, the energy required to pass thru each obstacle seems to double. Even for the parallel bar, I can like unbalance myself for some instanceS!Do the full course for once is still alright. BUT its NOT!its twice!!The jumping down from approximately 2.5m ( plus ur height is ard 4.2m?)really freaks me off. I always cant balance myself well when i land. I knw, bend ur leg, the time duration contact with the grd is longer, thus the force acting on ur leg is lesser(F = dp/dt). But still, I have no control over it. In additional, the sand will juz fly vertically upwards, dirty my rifle and hurt my rope burnt finger!& the weather tat day is DAMN hot too. *burnt

Mention of the hot weather, AD was hell too. All of us were standing right under the hot scotching sun. I can really feel the heat is pentrating thru my boots and gradually cooking my feet. The boots seems to be the wok and my feet is the ingredient. Fire is the heat from the sun. I almost fainted as well coz all of us are wearing cap as well. all the heat juz trapped inside the cap. That kind of feeling is juz SUX. Nw i knw how does ingredients feel when they're in the wok. awww....

Yah, I guess most of u knws there's champion league's final last night or what la. that some cb guys wake up in the middle of the night n go watch. Go watch still nvm. still kanna caught by sir. 5 guys kanna caught. still got 1 cb anyhow write name. die die also dun wan to admit. Even when the sir threaten to confine the whole COMPANY for the next weekend. THAT CB STILL DUN WAN TO ADMIT!!ds its really damn fucked up lei. N somehow, they somehow quite sure that the guy is from MY PLATOON. n coz of that, my platoon tio shit.

List of shits
1) Push up position for 3 mins, pump 15 times.
2) Stand by field bag and stand by bed in 5 mins
3) FBO(FULL BATTLE ORDER => helmet, rifle and field bag, attire => long sleeve uniform n boots), fall in downstairs
4)unpack field bag, put each pack(got 6 packs of stuffs) in different place.
5)take back each pack from various places and pack field bag in 2 mins time!!
6) Sir give lots of confinements to those past offenders. 1 guy tio 3 confinements. die man, he can stay in BMTC till he POP
7)No admin time. only left 30 mins for the WHOLE platoon to bath and lights off.

These may seems alright to u'all.but really, u'all have to try it out den u'll feel damn shag.

20th May
WTF. nw the CHEE BYE guy den admit. duh it waive off the confinement for the whole company next week. but he make us do all those shit for NTH!!really nth can. 50 ppl run for nth. if its really for something, we run for a CHAO CHEE BYE. Really man. I feel so ashame to be in the same platoon with such fucker.

OKay, its over. Today SOC again!this time full course cum running. the running really drains my energy off. its like. low wall become high wall?1st time i cant clear low wall upon 1st try. Everything juz seems so difficult. I guess partly becoz i feel quite dizzy when i wake up in the morning. out of 11 obstacles, i only clear 9!which = fail. i really wonder.....

After SOC, BCCT, its so shag, we still have to punch and kick. but the bk out idea makes me go on. At least, im able to see some of u. After bk out, went to see my juniors match. A bit disappointing. Some of dem dun really put in effort in playing. Sometimes i really wonder, if I shld scold some of dem. but generally, most of dem got put in effort la duh. haha. If the guys really determined to train up, next yr they'll be at least in top 6. I dun knw how their training is nw though some of dem commented that the coach put in more effort. But well, hope they're doing well though.

On the way home, my heart slightly aches. well..

ah, MONDAY -> WED SIT TEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!argh...~~~~~~~~~~ = (

My All

by Mariah Carey

Song details
Name	My All
Artist(s)	Mariah Carey
Album(s)	Butterfly (1997), #1's (1998), Greatest Hits (2001) Disc 2
LSI rank	-
Submitter	Jessica Anders (sailor_mars_s@bishoujosenshi.com)
Correcter	bella_90_@hotmail.com
Submitted	-
Corrected	31-12-2005 14:38

Song lyrics

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

I'd give my all
To have just one more night with you
I'd risk my life
To feel your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all
For your love tonight

Baby, can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

I'd give my all
To have just one more night with you
I'd risk my life
To feel your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all
For your love tonight

I'd give my all
To have just one more night with you
I'd risk my life
To feel your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all
For your love tonight
Give my all for your love
Tonight


Another nice song, get it dudes! =)

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