Sunday, July 02, 2006
7:59 PM
Bking in bking in. I feel super sian when the time draws nearer n nearer. Nw left 2 hrs only. See what yew is suffering makes me recall of e past. Nw tink back. U're juz the one i tink abt. No one else. lol. This also makes me sometimes wonder, why?Its been so long. I couldnt understand this.I could even totally forget abt recent ones. Look thru e mails n testi u gave me. I tink its countable with my fingers. Only den I realise, when it comes to heart matters, I always cant take a step back & look at a bigger picture. I always tend to stuck in tat small picture & go merry go rd. Narrow-minded.
Dun knw what's wrong with me too.
I seems to juz waste my time off during my bkout time recently.
Not like when im in BMT, every weekend is so much more fruitful as compared to nw.
I dun really knw how to express my feel.
Its like, I wann to go out to have fun. I really want to.
Coz army life is strangling me up. My breathing nearly stopped.
& yet it comes to a pt where, no one is kind of free, even when i managed to go out with a few frens, I dun feel as happy. Or rather, I dun open myself up as I supposed to be.
U also can say, I dun knw what I want nw.
I dun knw what are my needs. Im completely so blur. Its such a torture..
Most probably there isnt anyone out dere can do the things I like with me
Maybe what im experiencing is juz pure lonliness, I maybe juz exaggerating.
well..I really do feel down nw. Really.
Somehow, juz wish someone is dere with me.Someone to share e heavy load tat Im carrying nw..
Guess I'm really reluctant to move on with this kind of life.When I tink of the life in dere, I juz got freaked out. How I wish I'm not dere. I'm really reluctant to move on..But who, who can pull me out of this?
Hai, Im still such a dependent boy...
歌曲:我要快乐
又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的
把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
我的决定是对的
Perhaps, This is what Im feeling nw.. = (
fcuk_off`
my attitude
20 ----> 21
loves my 'wife'
loves laming though keep stuttering like an idiot
loves bioing
loves pull ups!perhaps, its a past thing alr
loves going out with frens(where?o.O).
loves enjoy life
loves slping(esp when a nice green grass patch.;) )
what i want
wants
wants $$
wants the one
wants happy life. ;)
wants to be non-virgin when i die. heh..=)
wants ORD NW!