WhatTheFcuk

Tuesday, May 01, 2007
8:52 PM

Have you ever wonder...?

Why ppl tend to keep more things within themselves as they grow older?

I mean, Ya. It happen to me as well.

& Im trying to devise a logical explanation which maybe none of u agrees

Here it comes

As one grow older, one is supposed to knw more (i.e, shld knw how to solve it as well)

When dat happens, one will have less tendency to open his/her golden mouth to ask for help

Hence, it gets tougher for ppl ard to knw and help the person in general.

Army guys' eng sux. Pardon me for the HORRIBLE sentence structure

Its just like when Im in JC, whenever I've some problem, I'll have no 'paiseh' feeling to step out and tok to yy abt it.

Nw, I feel..dat I shldnt even tok abt it. Coz the matter is alr history for years & partially, I feel like I dun even wan to mention abt the name.

& I shld b able to handle.

Well. The game of discover oneself is always so hectic.

Even for myself, I used to tink I knw myself well.

I always thought that I love to listen to fren's problems.& i'll b interested

Nw, though I still love to do the same thing,but I become passive, I wait for ppl to come up to me and say, 'hey dude, can I lend ur shoulder/ear for some time?'

Nw, even I myself, finds that I'm a total mystery

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Today went out w NYTT.

It just feels gd to just see dem even when I'm mentally tired & have nth much to say at some moments.

At the very end of the outing, after zq board the bus, I walked alone. To the very last bus stop of the road.

Walking and listening to mp3 at the same time, that stretch of place below the mrt track certainly mesmerise me of the past.

I can see myself lying on the bench. Feeling sad and helpless.

B4 reaching the last bus stop, 162 came.

I ran like a mad dog, still, I cant catch it.

Sometimes its fate I guess.

No matter how much hardwork u put in, the work done is always zero.

Its just like a heart which I cant touch for the entire of my life.

Sit while Panting at the bus stop.

I also can see, both of us walked happily to ur house bus stop to wait for bus 55.

I can see, how I used to wait for u at the bus stop to go sch even though I din arrange to meet u at all.

I can see, how I ignore u at the same bus stop when I cant handle my emotions.

Ppl says time will heal everything

Another saying is, time will numb one's wound.

What abt mine?

Seems like time have not been doing much.

Wondering, when the day will come?The day when things will finally go smooth.

fcuk_off`